There are so many emotions going through my being, as I write this post. As I wrote in my last post, this has been a month where there were moments when I felt very vulnerable. Yet I have also seen God's hand in abundantly providing.
After I returned home from my trip to visit family in Iowa and Minnesota in early July, I was also able to enjoy some quality time with some grandchildren who live closer by but whom I also hadn't seen for a little while; because they also now live three hours away.
I also had an interview with Guideposts magazine. They called me a few weeks back about doing an interview with me. That phone interview took place a little over a week ago. It was an hour and a half interview. It was a very good interview. Good questions were asked, but I was a bit emotionally drained afterwards. Then on Tuesday of last week they sent a local photographer to the place where I volunteer for a photo shoot.
Guideposts is doing a whole series of articles this year on family caregivers. My article is scheduled to be in the October issue and will center on the idea that once a caregiver always a caregiver. This is because my volunteer work involves giving respite to family caregivers through a wonderful social program three times a week for their loved ones. I personally volunteer one of those three days. So look for my article in October, if you have access to the Guideposts magazine. Also read the other articles on care-giving in their magazine this year. It is so good to see a magazine giving acknowledgement to all that family caregivers do for their loved ones.!
In addition to these things there are other day to day issues which have come up in my life recently which needed tending. Also this week on July 30 would have been my 44th wedding anniversary. I ask for prayers for me on that day.
Please forgive me, dear caregiver, as I have diverted a bit in this post to talk about personal issues. I guess one of my main reasons for sharing this with you here is to encourage you that God will use your care-giving experiences in the days ahead in ways you never imagined. He is transforming you and growing you in your character and in your love for the Lord through this experience. He also may use that experience in other people's lives. Also I believe God uses these experiences to teach us to lean on the Lord and to see His protecting and guiding hand through it all. I see and have seen that over and over. I sometimes struggle with how the good things which have come from my experience can possibly ever make up for the pain of seeing my husband's body deteriorate during those four and half years of his illness and then my losing him. Yet God is good all the time. He knows what He is doing. Rest in that, dear caregiver.