I was at a local craft and vendor fair yesterday taking advantage of another possible avenue for allowing people to purchase my book. This involved sharing my caregiver story at least briefly several times yesterday. I am amazed that after over three and a half years since my care-giving days ended, this still stirred up emotions in me. It made me feel sad and weepy again last night.
Sometimes I think I have come come so far. Sometimes I wonder. I am so thankful for all the things the Lord has taught me in the last few years. I like how my character has grown and has been stretched. My relationship with the Lord has grown so sweet. I believe the Lord is using me in His kingdom through my book and in other ways because of my care-giving experiences and my grief since my husband's death. I love seeing that, but yet it hurts. It still hurts.
I am telling you this, dear caregiver, to let you know that I still feel your heartache; as you care for your loved one. I know it hurts, I feel your pain, as you perhaps see your loved one's health deteriorate before your eyes. I feel your pain, as you mourn the lost of the lifestyle free from disease that you once enjoyed with your loved one.
Yet remember that the Lord has promised to never leave you or forsake you, dear caregiver (Hebrews 13:5b). He will be with you each step of the way leading and guiding (Psalm 32:8). The work you are doing God considers extremely important in His kingdom. Most of all He delights in you, dear caregiver (Zephaniah 3:17). His love for you and your loved one is faithful and will never end. Cling to that, dear caregiver.
This morning in my woman's Sunday school class I was reminded of the peace God wants to give us. It is a peace that is there for the taking. God does not want us to have our hearts troubled or stirred up into a frenzy by the storms of life (John 14:27). He wants us to focus on Him as the only solid foundation for peace, because He alone is the author and source of peace. He can calm our outward circumstances, but perhaps more importantly He can calm our hearts in the midst of the difficult circumstances and storms of life. Only a heart of prayer mixed with a thankful heart can cultivate that kind of peace no matter what is going on in our lives (Philippians 4:4-6). I know the heartache and uncertainty that family care-giving can arouse in your life, dear care-giver. Focus on the Lord and His peace, dear caregiver.